~Who Else BuT ME~

Disappointment

2011-03-04T22:50:00.002+08:00

Totally felt disappointed in someone rite now...

I gave too much..
i tot for you is all worth it
but i'm wrong
i hope i'm wrong...

anyway...

if you ever manage to read this post...
let me tell u smthg...

If you chose to be like dat...
hide yourself...
don't blame your best friend for not standing by your side...
seek you out...

is your life...u choose to be dat way...
hope that i'll forget and forgive u...

but all i wanna say is

"I'M DISAPPOINTED IN YOU!!!"

I'm back here...because i'm sad

2011-02-13T01:07:00.002+08:00

Ya...is always like that..

i'll onli visit when i'm sad, when i have no one to talk to, when i'm depressed!!

felt so weird today...woke up feeling sad...start the morning moody...cry myself at the night...what has happened to me today...can someone tell me???

actually i know why...but just that i doesn't want to admit it...i doesn't want to acknowledge it...it'll just makes me even frustrated, dissapointed and mad!!!

y am i always the one being sacrified?? is it just because i'm too kind hearted??soft hearted??
i don't mind doing it all...but can i at least be treated fairly???

please don't take me for granted!! i don't know how long more i can last...when that happens...i'll just run away...

just don't let that happen...please!!

What will they be after life?

2010-05-16T16:01:00.000+08:00

I always wonder,
Where will they go…
Around us?
Heaven? Is there such place as heaven?
Or,
there’s really nothing after life…
v.a.n.i.s.h.e.d

If their souls are still somewhere in this world or another world…
How will they be like? Healthy? Sick? Still senile? Still carrying the same pain with them?
What will they look like? The look when they die? The look when they were in their 20?30?40?
Will they still remember everything or anything?

Gloomy April

2010-05-09T17:52:00.001+08:00

It has been awhile since I’ve updated my blog…
Only when I’m really sad or lost
Then I’ll visit you again
I’m so sorry blog…
For abandoning you…

Ya…it has been a gloomy April…
We’ve lost someone…
Just way too sudden
I brought him out on Monday
and on Saturday…
He left us…
No sign, no warning, no bye…
The very last thing he said to me was….
“Rachel, thank you…”
I can still remember his face when he said that to me…
But now,
I can’t see him anymore…

-R.I.P-

只想訴說

2010-02-16T15:51:00.002+08:00

剛剛聊了我之前的感情處境。。。

害得我現在有點悶悶不樂。。。

應該是發現我沒把它處理好吧。。。

吊着一半。。。

沒有讓這故事有個結局。。。

害得我不知道該如何接下一段故事。。。

還真的讓我想了想。。。

如果我們那時候那樣。。。

那。。。

現在我們是怎樣。。。

如果。。。

那時候。。。

你積極些。。。

對我說。。。“あなただいすきよ”

可能。。。

我們就能一起過情人節了。。。

一起做好多好多的事情。。。

但是。。。

另一方面

你讓我更了解

我想要的是什麼。。。

重新找回失去已久的heartbeat。。。

“ほんとにありがとおございます”

希望我們還會像以前一樣。。。不會有任何改變~

Changes and Adaptation

2010-01-09T12:04:00.002+08:00

"Off day and rest day"

Changes: from saturday and sunday

to friday and saturday

Adaptation: wake up early on sunday to go to work

being alone in the office

"New sitting arrangement in the office"

Changes: from middle

to the front

Adaptation: don't walk to my old working station

Changes: from computer position out of sight of manager

to visible sight of manager

Adaptation: can't online

Changes: from myanmar colleague sitting behind me

to japanese colleague sitting behind me

Adaptation: hopefully he can speak english lar

Sista's Wedding

2010-01-04T20:06:00.004+08:00

After going tru so so much...

The day you've been waiting for has arrived....

I'm so so HAPPY for you!!!

一定會很幸福的噢~

1st and 2nd Day of 2010

2010-01-03T00:57:00.006+08:00

How did i spent my 1st day and 2nd day of 2010~

1st day went shopping with family and aunty...wanted to watch Avatar 3D...unfortunately...no more nice seats...all front row...how pathetic is that...so spent all day shopping...bought a heel and a dolly shoe...and also a short...after dinner, went for nadeje cake...CAKE AGAIN~after that...found a nice spot to go to...to relax and to chitchat~

2nd day...suppose to clear my clothes and closet...but end up...

YES~Baking Muffins with my babe...Sarah!!

And THAT is our Rachel's and Sarah's Muffins!!~hehe^^

Success!!

Cheoeum Neukkim Geudaero就如第一感覺一樣

2010-01-01T12:42:00.004+08:00

Cheoeum Neukkim Geudaero (就如第一感覺一樣)

*我在走不同的路你什麼話也沒有說

感覺你因等待而疲憊我都知道

你還要繼續走下去你不能期待什麼

那顆心逐漸地變涼我會很害怕

昨天看到你的時候我轉身離去了*

**忘了我吧

如果我愛你不會說愛你這句話

而會更冷淡地待你你是知道的

今天遠離你忘掉獨處的日子吧**

我實在是不能對你說的那句話

我愛你就如第一感覺一樣

今天遠離了你相信獨處的我

我不能對你開口說的那句話

就是

我愛你就如第一感覺一樣

就如第一感覺

*this song somehow describe what's happening between us...

beginning of the song(*) describing u...

middle of the song(**) describing wat i feel now...

really had goosebumps while listening to it and understanding the lyrics...hope u'll c this~)

Flash Back

2009-12-28T20:16:00.023+08:00

Flash Back tru out the year of 2009

Chinese New Year>>>>

Valentine's>>>

Final Year Project>>>

My Birthday>>>

Our Last Paper & last day in MMU>>>

My Convocation>>>

Graduation Party>>>

1st Primary School Classmates Gathering 6H>>>

New Born Baby Ashley(My Biao Niece)>>>

Mummy's Birthday>>>

My Company's Annual Dinner>>>

Merry X'mas>>>

Food>>>

Friends>>>

Past

Time flies

What happened

Last month is like yesterday

and yesterday is like last month

Present

Looking back

From beginning to the end

are all unforgettable memories

bitter or sweet

Future

Unpredictable and untouchable

What lies ahead

are for us to embrace

be brave and bold

Love

Those that i realized are important to me

I love and cherish you even more

Hate

Those that have showed your true colors

I was disappointed but i forgive you

Apologize

Those that i have hurt

I'm truly sorry

Thank You

Those that have been by my side when i was down

I super appreciate it

Goodbye 2009

I welcome you

*2010*

(For more photos...please do visit my Facebook)

Christmas Wish List

2009-12-23T22:44:00.012+08:00

I know is kinda late to post this...but, mana boleh tak ada wish list...hehe^^

Rachel LeAnn's X'mas Wish List:

1. Handphone

-flip open(not slide open), with bluetooth, at least 1.3MP camera, 1GB memory card, big screen, MP3 and etc...

2. 98 Degrees albums

- Revelation

- This Christmas

- 98 Degrees

(any one will do~)

3. Purse

- black color purse, slim and simple

4. Sunglasses

5. 8GB Pendrive (hehe^^of cos the bigger the better~)

The 1st one is the one thing i really want...oh~ is not want is NEED!! muahaha...really need to change my 5 years old hp ad!!

Anyway...

*Merry Merry Christmas everyone!!!*

(hopefully Santa will see this post...hehe^^...i've been a good girl this year~)

Destiny

2009-12-20T00:33:00.002+08:00

Believe in fate to love...

The people whom you’re supposed to meet...

You’ll meet them sooner or later...

Don't Rush...

No Rush...

堅持

2009-12-19T00:43:00.003+08:00

我...

找回了當初的堅持

找回了當初為何那麼堅持

找回了當初所堅持的

我...

會繼續堅持

堅持我想要的

堅持我所

渴望的未來

渴望的結局

堅持...

我該堅持的

堅持到底...

Ideal X'mas Celebration

2009-12-16T23:12:00.006+08:00

Been asked and asking others where to and how to celebrate X'mas this year round...and suddenly pop in my mind....my ideal X'mas celebration here goes~

My ideal X'mas celebration will be something like this...

Invite my closest friends over to my house...

or if possible rent a nice cozy apartment...

decorated with a medium size christmas tree...

with blankets and pillows on the floor...

order nice and delicious food and desserts...

have our dinner together and a lil chat...

then desserts and exchange prezzies...

after that...with dimmed lighting...

watch a couple of nice and romantic movies (DVD) together...

sitting on the floor covered with blanket and pillows...
and...

with a glass of fine red wine~

and that will be more than enough~

*of cos...if with my another half...will be the best X'mas celebration ever!!

I didn't mean it

2009-11-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

Im wey sorry...
i really didn't mean to hide this from you
i was confused
and i know u don't like it when i kept it a secret from you
but i just don't know how to explain to you tho...
cos i know how you'll react to what im going to tell you
however, as "bff"...
i really think and feel that there shouldn't be any secret between us
so i've decided to tell you 2nite
hope is not too late...
and hope that you'll forgive me!!
don't worry
i'll take good care of myself
i'll always think ahead before i take the next step
somehow
i've took the way that either one of us will rugi
and i know you are worried about me
really...
don't worry
i'll try my very best to protect myself
try my best to minimize my rugi-ness!!
haha!!
thanks for all the advices
makes me think and consider even more...
more guidelines for me to refer...hehe^^

when the time is right and when that time comes

hopefully i'll know what to do and that i can solve it...

When you said that you'll always be there for me...
and support me forever
is really a relieve for me and i felt so blessed
to have YOU...
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!
and again
SORRY!!!

Courtship

2009-11-08T00:28:00.002+08:00

Ask for my name
as i want you to make the 1st move
Ask for my number
as i want you to call
Ask for a date
as i want to get to know you more

Bring me flowers
as it makes me feel precious
Sing me love songs
as it makes me touch
Bring me to dinner and movie
as it makes me happy

Hold my hand always
as it makes me close to you
Hold me close
as it makes me feel warm
Say "I love you"
as it makes me feel loved

Dreary

2009-09-22T13:31:00.001+08:00

I found that i don't do the things i like anymore...

i don't sing when i'm happy
i don't shop when i wanted to
i don't play the piano anymore
i don't laugh like i used to laugh
i don't smile from my heart anymore

but one thing i'm for sure...
i cry very often nowadays
i'm moody when i'm all alone
Yes, i know the feeling of being lonely...

Series of misfortunate

2009-09-19T22:35:00.004+08:00

They will never stop disturbing you when they have chosen you as their next target!!
Hell I was damn “suei” this month...every single week sure to have something happened...
I know I know...I know got one fellow sure want to tell me not to take such things so seriously, don’t think too much and just ignore it...but hor...really “suei” leh...

I’ll just mention one of the misfortunate that happened...
See that?? OMG!!!~
I was driving and suddenly *pom...piang*...there you go...habis!!

That day also almost accident...this idiot car rush out as im about to turn right into the junction...left a few inches between my car and his car...that was really my first time HORN sampai “kao kao”...kns!!

Dah lar...im not happy and moody this few days...manatau kena this kind of things...really "suei" till the end!!

I know...you said before...

"when you keep on thinking about those things...it will follow you...and don't make everything as if is your own fault...don't make small matters and change it into something so huge of a matter..."

Ya lar Ya lar..."cheong hei"!!~

Haiz...Really need to go "bai bai"...bad luck is following me...leave me please!!~

只想要个答案

2009-09-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

我以为我放下了
但是我却没有
应该说
正要放下
你却又再次出现
可不可以
干脆一些
潇洒一点
说出你想说的
别再拖拖拉拉了
我不想再等了
再给你时间
之后
我不会再理会你了
我不想让自己伤心了
我不想浪费我的时间了

我只想要个答案。。。

不公平-萧贺硕

2009-09-15T12:55:00.003+08:00

走了那么远
发现你不在身边
独自走过了什么
自己都不了解
未来的蓝图应该有你
不该只剩叹息
只是偶尔泪流不停

坚强的理由
只是自己骗自己
你眼中的恐惧
说什么都多余
付出的一切值不值得
永远不会有答案
只有天知道我有多么爱你

一颗心属于一个人
在爱情里什么算公平
爱的深也伤的深
是不是催眠了自己
一颗心属于我自己
爱情里找不到公平
而当你最后选择了逃避
我学会不公平

本来就不公平

*A song describing every woman's fragile heart
realising that she's walking alone all the while
lying herself that she's strong
there's never answer to all her sacrifices
only heaven knows how much a woman loves a man
there isn't fairness in love*

结婚

2009-09-02T17:41:00.001+08:00

在短短地两天
有两个人
问我几时要结婚
一个是我的老师
一个是婚纱店的老板娘
老师问得很严肃
好像觉得我就快了
老板娘问得很理所当然
好像觉得有钱赚了
哈哈～

哪会那么快。。。
Marriage need commitment...i still want to be free~i want to play,enjoy, have fun summore lar~

8 Things

2009-08-27T16:48:00.002+08:00

So happy about…
1. Saturday 6H gathering…can’t wait to c my primary friends and teachers again!!
2. Sunday Liling’s family dinner…can wait to eat Liling’s popo’s pudding and “gui ling gao”!!
3. Monday holiday…don’t have to work!!
4. Meeting Ying Ing…so many things wanna tell her!!
5. Receiving my 1st salary!!
6. Having the time to relax and eat!!
7. Having someone to chat with me when im boring!!
8. Having you by my side!!

There are many little things that can make you happy...we should pay more attention to it...and ignore the unhappy things surrounding us...that way we'll be more happy and contented!! And i'm trying to teach myself that and bringing myself towards that!!

失落沙洲-徐佳莹

2009-08-22T11:22:00.001+08:00

又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲
随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

又回到这个尽头
我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾没有你分享我的感动

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白还有谁能来教

我爱我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我
不是你想看见的我

我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能教我勇敢
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

他或许已经等你很久喽

2009-08-21T16:23:00.003+08:00

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，
只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
*她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？
很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！
其实是人先被惰性征服，
所以感情才会变淡的.

爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！
懂了吗？
当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。
那并不代表你会选择他。
*我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。
但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。
*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢?
其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧!
他或许已经等你很久喽！

我不怪你

2009-08-21T12:29:00.000+08:00

我不怪你
毕竟不是你一人照成的
我也有责任
我没有反对
也没有拒绝
你开始那游戏
我却陪你玩下去
最后是我遭到失望
与你无关
现在
我唯有保持距离
不让自己越陷越深

Hati yang Menunggu

2009-08-20T15:57:00.004+08:00

Bayu mengetuk pintu bilikku
Tiada kelihatan bayanganmu
Sayu hatiku menantikanmu
Jangan biar hatiku melayu

Bintang berkelipan di malam hari
Senyumanmu puasku mencari
Rindu tiada kehilangan walaupun sehari
Jangan biarku menunggu lagi

Cuaca kelihatan duka
Air mata membasahi wajah muka
Hatiku kau yang luka
Adakah anda mengetahuinya

Semakin hari semakin sunyi
Adakah kau membiar hatimu bersembunyi
Biar aku berseorangan diri
Sampaikah hatimu melihatku begini

Keep Trying

2009-08-19T17:06:00.002+08:00

I kinda like what i accidentally found...
Here's how it goes~

You love each other but there's a problem that one of you think is a problem....
So if you're the one that think that's a problem,
Remember that love is a great feeling...
You can love anyone your heart choose and not you...
Remember that there's no power in the world like the power of love...
So think about it and if you're the one that think it's not a problem..
Don't give up...
Someday,
He/she will change his/her mind...
Keep trying!!

怎么会这样

2009-08-19T10:54:00.002+08:00

那天突然听同事说了个有趣的道理
不知是真是假
但是
很有可能

当你有俩杯水
里面都装有清水
一个一直被你说“你很臭，你很脏”。。。
另一个一直被你说“你很香，你很清”。。。
到最后
一个被你说臭，脏的
真的会变不清澈
另一个却依然保持着清澈。。。

换另一个例子
如果你一直说“你很笨你很傻”
那人迟早会被你骂成笨蛋。。。

我最近也有发生类是的问题
朋友一直说有可能，有机会，有那感觉在。。。
本来不觉得。。。
现在
我却慢慢地也相信有可能。。。

天啊
怎么会这样。。。
难道
人的思想能那么容易的被影响吗？？
人的心怎么那么容易被受控制呢？？
那
我怎能再相信我的直觉。。。
我的心呢？？

感触

2009-08-17T16:13:00.002+08:00

今天特别多感触
趁现在想写些东西
就把它给发泄
也不是发泄啦
只想说说

我发现
1. 某人变了，变得很自私，然后，我很讨厌她，结论，人是会变的！
2. 某人对我好好，好得很，然后，是真心吗，结论，我该小心！
3. 某人突然对我很好，好得奇怪，然后，是为了什么，结论，我该和他保持距离！
4. 某人突然说了些东西，有的没有的东西，然后，我突然也觉得好像有，结论，我不知道到底有还是没有！
5. 某人感谢我，说我是值得交的朋友，然后，我很开心，结论，我是真心对朋友地！

我到底是怎么了

2009-08-17T15:52:00.002+08:00

已经半天过去了
我还是感觉闷闷不乐
吃了巧克力
以为会好一些
但并没有
对着电脑
坐着静静地
奇妙地
眼泪却在眼眶里打滚
好想大哭
可是我必需压抑着
好累好累
我不想在任何人面前哭
因为哭了
会使我变得脆弱无助
觉得自己的防备已被卸下
很容易被别人侵入
说着说着
又有点哽咽
我到底是怎么了？？？

*(不要问我发生什么事。。。因为我也不知道。。。如果知道了也不想说。。。谢谢了解！）

偏偏

2009-08-17T12:53:00.000+08:00

这几天不知道是哪不对劲
心情好乱，好复杂，好不凝定
好像又回到曾经有过的感受
好讨厌，好烦
那种不知所措的感觉
不知道如何开口说
说了也不晓得有人能了解或能帮我分析
自己的感受难处
往往得一人承担
偏偏
我又不敢打开心胸不敢去面对
害怕看得太清楚会让自己失望难过
害怕受伤害
为何偏偏
是现在发生
偏偏
是在我最懦弱的时候
我还要承担这多久
我不想要这样
赶快让它结束吧
好吗??

Class of 2009

2009-08-08T20:28:00.002+08:00

Tommorow(9/8/2009) is my convocation...
at Cyberjaya MMU campus, Dewan Tun Canselor...
8am-12pm...

C you guys there!!~
*Happy Graduation Class of 2009*

The start of something new

2009-07-26T19:04:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day of enjoying...
I'm gonna miss my afternoon nap and late nite TV the most...

What will tmr be like??
Hope that it'll be a smooth one...
Hope that it'll be a interesting one...

Hope that everyone will be nice...

Hope that i'll like it...
Hope that i'll get used to it...
*cross my finger*

Other than that...i'm excited though...let this excitement continue~
Ciao~

Luck, Hard Work, Mind??

2009-07-26T18:52:00.002+08:00

Chat wit a fren just now...toking about finding and getting a job after graduated...

Luck or Ability??
Luck 1st or Luck later on??
Luck, Hard work and Mind?? Which one 1st?? How will u arrange it??

Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
i feel luck more important lor
@nSoN ^^ says:
hahaha
@nSoN ^^ says:
luck,hard work,mind r 3 important factors
@nSoN ^^ says:
same importanct la
@nSoN ^^ says:
haha
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
u must get the luck to get a job ma...
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
thn get job ad must hard work lor...
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
thn work long ad must have a positive mind lor...
@nSoN ^^ says:
hahaha
@nSoN ^^ says:
diff thinking v u
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
hahaha~
@nSoN ^^ says:
depend ability 2 get a job
@nSoN ^^ says:
den work hard
@nSoN ^^ says:
den hav a good mind
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
maybe in mlk nid luck lor...
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
KL nid ability
@nSoN ^^ says:
after tat,must c got luck 2 let ppl look up ma
@nSoN ^^ says:
hahaha
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
i found this job oso by luck lor
@nSoN ^^ says:
oic
@nSoN ^^ says:
my "luck" is 让人赏识
@nSoN ^^ says:
hahaha
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
true oso
@nSoN ^^ says:
anyway,wat u think oso rite
@nSoN ^^ says:
hahaha
Rachel LeAnn~9th August 2009 My convo!! says:
hahaha

So...What do you think??

Scrap

2009-07-24T20:20:00.003+08:00

Yesterday...
Woke up in the morning, received sms from fren asking me to go shopping...woohoo!!
Went to Jaya Jusco after knowing that it was JJ member's day...means discount, cheaper and jam!!
However, we were lucky enuf...after one aunty took our parking(so damn pissed), we managed to get another parking just in front of us...line up for McD in a short lane whc i could not understand why others don't want line up in a shorter queue...fitting room was fast...pay counter was fast...everythg was fast!!That's how shopping should be...fast and u get to buy the things u like in cheaper price without the need to wrestle with others!! hahaha^^

Today...
Trim my hair...cos it is getting messy...haha^^
Still considering what shoud i do to my hair...perm it? curl it? straighten it? leave it?
Supposed to eat Nadeje cake 2day which im craving for it for weeks...but plan always kena cancel...really no jodoh with the cake...cancel so many times or tak buka...damn sien~
when can i eat u?? So obessed with cakes nowadays...if u can give me cakes(especially with lotsa creams) i will say "yes" to anythg!! Muahaha~

Nevermind

2009-07-22T20:37:00.004+08:00

Ya...Went to spa yesterday...jacuzzi to be exact!! wanted to do sauna but end up jacuzzi...nvm...sweat like hell...after spa continue to sweat!! is a good alternative if u dun like exercise but u want to sweat...hahaha!! *swt*

Dinner went for sate celup as plan...wanted to eat more but kinda felt my throat about to sore so stop at 13sticks only...*sob sob* nvm...next time i eat more!!hahaha~

Craving for desserts after that but have to go home ad...so cancel pulak the plan...nvm...next time...next time go eat cake and ice cream!!

Liling is back...suppose to go out just now...but suddenly plan cancel...aiyoh...semua plan not going as plan...sien sien!!! nvm...find another!! Want to bring her go makan cake!!!hahaha~

Nothing Much

2009-07-20T16:53:00.003+08:00

Don't really know what to blog about recently...many things going on...but lazy to blog about! Since i have nothing to do now...might as well type something.

Well, i have one last week to enjoy before i'm stuck with the working havoc or working life for the years to come...trying to find things that i want to do...trying to fill up the weekdays with activities...

Monday: Sending my pants for alteration (whc is not a fun activitiy...yeah...but can't find other things to do already)

Tuesday: Going for spa with Pris thn nite sate celup with weiqi...*maybe*

Wednesday: Hoping to meet up with Liling as she's reaching melaka on tuesday...

Thursday: Karaoke and shopping

Friday: Shopping and movie

Saturday: Yamcha

Sunday: Might sleep the whole day...

Muahaha!!!~hope that it'll be a fun week though...hope all those activities can be accomplish!!

Other than that, waiting for convocation on the 9th of August...at MMU Grand Hall, Cyberjaya Campus. Hope that you guys can come!!

原来

2009-07-08T16:44:00.002+08:00

我终於知道
为何有时候我会对她特别冷淡
原来
是因为我害怕和她太亲
太亲，太疼爱了之后
害怕失去她
害怕我无法去接受这事实
因为我不能没有她
已经习惯她的存在
请别怪错我
希望你明白

Helpless

2009-07-07T16:58:00.002+08:00

There's something happening 2day...
but sadly and helplessly
i can't do anything...
i can just watch and let it happen
i can't voice out my thoughts...
as i'm not in the position to do so
so helpless!!

April ago~

2009-06-12T17:08:00.005+08:00

Beginning of April was still a busy month for my FYP, busy with data analysis and findings...also the correction, adjustment and modification of the whole FYP from chapter1 to chapter5...

The end of April was a dark dark scary days of my life...not for me only but for my whole family members...I guess a lot of you don’t really know what really happened to me and my family but a few of my friends knew about it already and I choose to tell only a few of them...
*not going to say what happened here*

And because of this...i saw and realized which
Frens are really FRIEND
Frens are truly FRIEND that cares about me
Frens are for sure FRIEND to sacrifice your care and heart with

Don’t blame me for what I’m going to do to you in future...or should I say...I’ll never do anything to you which means ignoring you!!! I’m not going to treat you like I did before...you’ll just get a “cold” response from me next time you find me...

Anyway...in the midst of "what's happening"...I’m also in the midst of finalizing my FYP for submission, assignments and presentations...also, preparation of final examination...

Despite of the “what’s happening”...I’m still able to complete everything...complete every assignments and presentation and I’m super happy about my FYP presentation because only me got good comments from the panels...that means that I did well even though I’m going thru “what’s happening”!!!

My Final Year Project(FYP)

Even happier and proud is that...I managed to score damn excellent in my final examination!!!

After all that happened
There’s time that I wanted to give up
Luckily I did not
I’ve proved that I can do it
And yes
I can do it better than you
And is something I should be proud of

March ago~

2009-06-12T17:02:00.000+08:00

Let’s see what happened in March...

Erm...don’t quite remember though...all I can remember was FYP...started to do my FYP part 2 which is Chapter 4 and 5...which consists of setting questionnaires, distribution of the questionnaires, collection of questionnaires, attended SPSS software training, keying data into SPSS, data analysis and etc.

Other than that, my topic was chosen by my supervisor for the submission in a conference – 12th IBIMA Conference-Creating Global Economies through Innovation and Knowledge Management.

I assisted my supervisor in doing “Introduction”, “Literature Review” and “Research Methodology” which means that I’m also a part of getting this paper done.
The good news is that, this paper was accepted by the conference and will be published on their website, the bad news is that, this conference is from 29-30June 2009 where this time it is going to be held in KL which seems to be a good opportunity but the cost for attending the conference is damn expensive that my supervisor can’t afford to pay for himself or me to attend the conference for presentation and MMU don’t seem to play a supporting role here where they don’t want to sponsor!!

FYI, the fee for the conference is US$200++ for the main presenter and US$70++ for the second presenter or those that would like to attend (@_@)~!!!
However, it was a good experience for me and that I can have my name publish in this paper together with my supervisor’s name.

Coming Soon

2009-06-11T12:17:00.001+08:00

Is been 3months plus that i have not been blogging...
i thk is time...
not now but soon...
just wait~

Leave something behind

2009-02-22T01:34:00.000+08:00

Once, I remembered someone told me that I should leave something behind so that I’ll have the excuse, reason, anticipation...to go back, to realize, and to fulfill...what was incomplete, missed or unfinished business...

But, think twice....what if...
I don’t have the time anymore
I don’t have the opportunity anymore

Then,
I’ll feel as if I’ve missed out something in life, something incomplete...
I’ll regret....

So, which is better??
Leave something behind and let there be anticipation in life (something to wait for will make tomorrow even more anticipated)

Or...

Complete everything and let there be no regret in life...

Happy Valentine's

2009-02-15T13:59:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentine's~ Thank You for the Chocolate~

2009-02-12T22:21:00.003+08:00

What I really want and still not getting it or done it

I want...
1. a classical piano album
2. a head to toe spa

3. to go to a musical/orchestra performance concert (Piano)

4. to go to a rock concert

5. to spend one day watching Nicholas Sparks’ Movie e.g. A Walk to Remember
and The Notebook

Hhmm~what else?? i guess that's all...for now...later on...maybe more~

Goodbye 2008

2008-12-31T17:27:00.000+08:00

I just can’t imagine that 2day is the last day of 2008
Or should I say...
I’m stunned that how time really flies

Been asking myself
What have I done in 2008
What have I accomplished in 2008
How did I spent my life in 2008
How did I utilized every single day in 2008

Felt as if I’ve done nothing
Felt as if I’ve wasted something
Felt as if I’ve missed out something
Felt as if I’ve not make the most out of everything

I’ll only have memories
Or maybe some regrets
I’ll only have stories
Or maybe some secrets

I hope
I did not left something behind
I hope
I did not left someone behind

If I did
Let me find it back next year
If I did
Let me pick up where I left off this year

And next year (2009)
Let it be a dazzling year~
Happy New Year!!

Christmas Gift

2008-12-31T17:25:00.000+08:00

I’ve never wanted a Christmas gift
Nor a Christmas tree
I’ve never wanted a Christmas feast
Nor a Christmas jingle

All I want for Christmas is my family
And my friends
All I want for Christmas is you
And only you

I must have done something good
Or I’ve been a good girl
My wish was granted
I was given something I once longing for

The best Christmas gift
Was to meet you again
The best Christmas moment
Was to talk to you again

The West believes
Christmas reunite people
I believe
Christmas reunite you and me

Merry Christmas~

2nd Trimester

2008-11-14T22:52:00.001+08:00

Started my new semester on Tuesday. 2nd Trimester of my DELTA year. Took 3 subjects for this semester, one of it is my Final Year Project, and I’m glad that I finally came up with a topic which means that I can start finding journals and articles for literature review. And here comes the worse part of it...I need to find around 50 journals and complete 3 chapters, 50pages....in just 5 weeks...including this week. OMIGOD!!! Although with all the deadline rush, I’m still not motivate to start doing anything...other than that, brand management presentation on the 3rd week of the semester...another subject class going start next week...dunno what kind of assignment or project awaits ahead...and is not going to be easy anyhow...gosh...the bad side of short semester...everything cramp together...really hope that I can cope with it though!!! *cross my finger*

Oh ya~ did my industrial training presentation on Monday and that marks the end of industrial training...I have a lot of things that I wanted to present but till it was my turn to present, I was totally fed-up of waiting outside the room, no chair to sit, standing 1hour plus in high-heels, no air-con, and I’m the last person to present...that’s it!!! I just present it in the most simple and direct way...hope that my panel will still give me high marks ya...hehe~

That’s all I can blog about since the semester just started...let’s pray that luck is by my side, I don’t get frustrated easily with my Final Year Project and pray that I’ll still have time to play. *wink*

金牛座的我

2008-10-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

我从不相信同血型或星座的人会有相似的个性或想法。。。
直到我认识他
另一只金牛
好可怕。。。
可是是非常好的聊天对象
和他谈天说地后
才发现原来我的个性是那样。。。
说难听的。。。
“固执”
说好听些。。。
“专一”
做任何事，决定任何选择。。。
会听从他人的意见
但是。。。
也有自己的想法
不会随意接受。。。
有时候甚至完完全全抗议
相信自己的想法是真确的
对自己的想法很有信心
但。。。
不会说出口
另外。。。
喜欢胡思乱想
想些有的没有。。。
很喜欢想“如果” 。。。
喜欢帮自己事先判断“未来”
帮自己铺路
让自己不受伤害。。。
的确缺乏安全感
所以远距离是我们爱情的致命伤。。。

5月18日的金牛，固执的金牛，专一的金牛，缺乏安全感的金牛。。。
今天的我，未来的我
金牛座(Taurus)的我。。。

*突然想到另一只金牛。。。
那只金牛的口味和我很像。。。我们都怕苦瓜！！！*

A scrap of everything

2008-10-09T15:16:00.005+08:00

2nd week of my holiday now...4 to 5 more weeks to go...long huh~ yeah...this will be the longest break throughout my study in MMU...gonna enjoy it to the fullest and I’m not going to find a part time job this time around...however, if there is a high pay part time job...I’ll surely consider bout it though...haha~ So, what did I do for the last 2 weeks??? Let’s see....nothing much!! But, I’ve been going out a lot. Many catching-up to do with friends...so, went makan, movie, shopping etc.

Talk about movie...I’m supposed to go for a movie 2day... “Disaster Movie” ...I really want to watch that movie with you guys but I’ve been going out too many times and later going out somor...haiz...so...like I’ve explained to you...paiseh ya~
I went with you guys Tuesday for “Halloween” ad rite and I oso dun wanna be a light bulb lar...you guys go lar...I know you guys are worried bout me...afraid that I’ll be alone...but I’m fine...really!!

Back to movie...watch “Mamma Mia” with Weiqi...no doubt, Weiqi is the one I wanted to watch the movie with since we love all these old English songs...it makes us wanted to sing along... “Watch that scenes, digging the dancing queens~” la~la~la~
Not much ppl will know how to enjoy this kinda movie though...a father brought his 2 kids to this movie but end of the movie, the father said: “ You guys wouldn’t know how to enjoy this kind of movie lar!!” So funny!!

As for “Halloween”, we tot it is a Zombie movie...manatau, no zombie at all...it was a movie about a boy that has mental prob, started killing people...bloods everywhere...damn geli~ at the end of the movie, we did see a “zombie” came out...
“Director, Rob Zombie”...=_=!! We tengok salah lar...saw the word zombie oni we think is zombie movie...bukan lar...the word zombie on the poster is the director’s name lar...duhhh~

Another plan, we tot of going for holiday after our training...planned for Bukit Tinggi at 1st, then too expensive plus not much things we can do there...so cancel...then plan for Genting on the 14th, but thn oni 3 of us...1 fly our kite...can’t find another 1...so cancel oso...now the plan is to go KL shopping with the 3 of us oni on the 22nd...really hope this will work this time~*cross my finger*...

What else...i’ve submit my industrial training report on Monday...27 pages...luckily I have things to write about...another task is presentation...that will be around November...so i’ll leave that aside 1st...hehe~
Final year project...OMIGOD!! I have not decide on a topic yet...really jialat rite now...no motivation to start at all...how I wish there’s someone giving me the push and the deadline...thn I’ll be able to begin and end the 3 chapters quickly...hoping to find a suitable chapter and finish chapter 1 before the semester starts though...need to cross my finger again...*cross cross*

Ya I almost forget to mention that my friend, my “da xiao jie”...is her birthday 2day...Happy Birthday!!! And another joyful news from her...is that she is getting married...registration is on 28th December...yeah~!! I’m so happy for her...after all the boundaries she went thru, how many tears she cried while telling how she feels...
“Girl~ you’ve made it!!! There’s a wonderful life ahead of you...bitter then sweet...
你一定会很幸福!!!
Also, there’s another couple having their registration on December though...not telling who here...can’t wait for that too...*wedding melody is in the air*

That’s all I guess~

Memories in Vishay

2008-09-30T20:40:00.004+08:00

~Vishay Foyer~

~My Smock and Badge~

Finally my training had come to an end. It was fast for sure...I tot I still remember hearing someone telling me “4 months is nothing, just a blink and there you go...4months had just passed by.” Did not agree that at first but I sure do when it was the last 2 weeks in Vishay.

All my memories in Vishay were as fresh as it had just happened yesterday...I still clearly remember the very 1st day in Vishay, the very 1st person I met and get so close to throughout the 4months. The uneasiness, foreign-ness, tedious waiting and so on. It was hard but somehow things get better and better, day by day.

After getting used to the environment, there came 3 other trainees. A change in plot of my training. They were like “playmates” unlike “colleagues”. Our emailing aka MSN, breakfast, lunch, tea breaks appointments every single day and how we get so “mischief” exploiting Vishay’s 2hours exit pass everyday for lunch. Those were our days...hahaha!!!

Let’s c what else we did or happened in Vishay...
1. Fire Drill practice. The last time I had fire drill practice was in primary school...that was a long time ago...not a bad experience...hehe~
2. Not forgetting shopping online. 1st time and we did it in Vishay...not suppose to online in Vishay to shop for clothes...but, hey we did it!!! Luckily we are not caught.
3. Lipat kertas sembahyang for 7month “Poh To”...join them for “Poh To” preparation and praying...GM pick numbers for 4D and the numbers were 6.6.0.2. Tak kena!!!
4. Chosen to perform for annual dinner opening gambit...but unfortunately there was a slight change of plan...so...CANCEL!! But I did learn something...line dance!! (sampai the guru tot I’m a ballerina and thk that I have some skills...*yea rite!!*)
5. Of cos...The most special event throughout training...Annual Dinner!!!

Some photos to share~

~Penny and Connie~

~Farewell at GoGo KTV~

There was no other way for me to show my appreciation for those who had help and care for me...i tak cukup duit nak belanja semua so I decided to bake.

~Muffins~

~More Muffins~

Get pretty good compliments for the muffins...of cos...need to thank my mum oso!!!

i guess that's all i have to say about my training...nothing more to talk about training already after this...but i still have to go back to Vishay for my cheque though...hehe~

Yeah!!~

I've graduated from Vishay Semiconductor Malaysia Sdn. Bhd.!!!!

诉苦

2008-09-25T23:00:00.000+08:00

好久没和你诉苦了耶
终於我又回来了
那你就让我发泄一下吧
因为我只剩下你这诉苦对象
就这一次
就那么一下下

我发现我有好多病
不是身体的疾病
而是心理病
心里好像住进了个病魔
折磨自己的心情
常常喜欢欺骗自己去相信它是存在
常常把自己推入它的陷阱
最后把自己搞得好难过
好伤心

知道它真的不存在时
的确让我沉入一度不知所措
你为何要制造那么多的希望
那么多的关怀
说过的话
你都忘了吗
还是你随便说说而已
为何要骗我甚至他
你把我们当什么
有什么不能坦诚说呢
那你不就和你所讨厌的那种人一样吗
为何你和他一模一样呢
为何我总是遇到这样的你呢

也许就象我说的
是我欺骗自己
我太容易相信他人了
太轻易在别人身上种植太多希望

现在我真的好伤心
有种说不出的难过
好累~

当我再次让它打开
我再次让它受伤
当你再次让它希望
你再次让它失望

T_T

远远-林宇中

2008-09-21T14:56:00.001+08:00

或许我不再出现爱才值得你怀念
你也不想见见了也不变
你痛苦转身的局面
或许我放的坚决你才允许让回忆浮现
是苦还是甜想起我的脸
希望不是眼泪的咸

我只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏
我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈
可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前
已不见你幸福爱我的脸

或许我放的坚决你才允许让泪浮现
是苦还是甜想起我的脸
希望不是眼泪的咸

我只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏
我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈
可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前
已不见你幸福爱我的脸
还欠你太多誓言我已没资格实践
为我紧紧贴着你的从前
而现在的我

只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏
我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈
可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前
已不见你幸福爱我的脸
在远远你幸福我会看见

倒数10天

2008-09-13T14:18:00.000+08:00

我的supervisor说: “Piklian...你很坏... 真的很坏!!!”

我没作错事啊。。。我并没有。。。我知道我没有！！
我每天都八点上班，偶尔迟到五分钟左右，下班五点十五分，我也不准时回家，你吩咐的工作，我也在限定的时间完整它，我也没吃蛇，虽然，我每次午餐时间都花了两个小时，但，那是我们能享用的benefit。。。公司让我们享有两小时的lunch。。。不是我的错！！！

“Piklian...你很坏... 真的很坏!!! 你害他迷上了你。。。让他好害羞。。。脸都红了。。。跟你说话都口吃。。。他还亲自上来拿equipment。。。在Vishay很有魅力噢！！！你真坏！！！

我是无辜的。。。不是我的错。。。我没有做什么。。。
放心。。。我剩下两个星期。。。就要离开了。。。
倒数10天~

I'll Miss You Guys

2008-09-06T22:03:00.002+08:00

After next week, I’m going to be alone again. You guys came after 2 weeks I was there, and now you guys are leaving me here 2 weeks by myself again.
Just like the theory of accounting, it should be FIFO (First in First out) but it is not the same with the situation right now...is more to LIFO (Last in First out) for you guys and FILO (First in Last out) for me...so pathetic!!

Felt like it was just yesterday we started to know each other and have our very 1st conversation. I first knew Penny...the next day, I met another 2 during our induction program...you guys were so “formal”...it made me somehow felt like there’s no way I’m going to be able to mix with you guys...but, who knows, we damn click! So many funny yet stupid conversations.

I just can’t imagine how am I going to get through my last 2 weeks without you guys...can’t imagine how am I going to get used to not emailing you guys saying
“Morning~ 9am breakfast ya!!~”
Not able to have breakfast at 9am (which I’m always late for 5-10mins) to start off our day by throwing out some funny talk...
Not able to email a.k.a “MSN” when I’m bored or to plan where to eat for lunch...
Not able to go out for lunch together anymore where I have to suffer with canteen food for another 2 weeks...
Not able to buy tea breaks at 4pm together...
Not all these anymore!!!

For some circumstances, one of them does not mix with us anymore...and there were 3...later came Eden, Penny’s bf...then, now we are 4...when there’s Vincent, there’s Penny, when there’s Penny, there’s always Eden, then where there’s 3 of them, there’s always me...I’ll always remember our shopping, 8TV concert, Chai Ming You, annual dinner, Merdeka countdown, our one day Malacca trip....

Although we still promise each other than we are going to keep in touch after this but who knows what the future holds...
I was once believed that nothing will change...but, that’s not true at all...
Anyhow, I’ll still keep my promise...don’t forget bout our holiday and lunch at MMU ya~!!!

天下无聚不散...
虽然很不舍得
但我珍惜我们曾经的一切
De de de jok jok~

Vishay's Annual Dinner

2008-08-31T18:12:00.006+08:00

This is my Industrial Training Company's Annual Dinner...
i'm glad and delighted that im invited...
Here are some of the photos~

Invitation Card

Table of Cowgirls

牛仔女很忙
(害羞啦)

For more photos...Go to My Friendster ya!!~

YeeHa~

2008-08-25T18:41:00.003+08:00

Yes...finally~
The most anticipated event throughout my training....

“Vishay’s Annual Dinner”

I'll be dressing up according to the theme...

"Wild Wild West"

Wait and see~

夏日八度演唱会

2008-08-24T22:36:00.003+08:00

期待以久的演唱会终於来临了
本来是和Agnes Lee， Ying Ing约好一起去
还有我姐，怎么知道到最后一分钟
他们都放飞机。。。但也怪不了他们。。。临时得工作和有派对。。。
只想和我姐说。。。太可惜了！！

幸好我还有伴。。。和Vincent, Penny and Penny Mum 去和人挤，去疯狂！！
六点多到MITC户外停车场。。。已见人山人海。。。已没办法站前面了。。。疯狂摇滚区Zone A 还离舞台蛮远的啦。。。虽然可以看见舞台。。。但是人好小一个勒。。。所以注定看大银幕。。。

老天爷可真的和我们开玩笑。。。突然下起毛毛细雨。。。可悲！！但，幸好我有带帽子和托Vincent 的福。。。他回车拿了把大雨伞。。。为我们撑伞。。。不然我就被淋湿了。。。星期一还得请假呢！！！哈哈！！
还有，我知道那把伞真的好重。。。辛苦你啦~

等待是漫长的。。。雨渐渐小了。。。在人挤人的状况下。。。好闷热噢！！等到了快九点。。。终於开始了~

第一个出场的既是Energy。。。Form 4迷的团体。。。那时候是第一届夏日八度演唱会。。。Energy是表演嘉宾之一。。。那时候多渴望去看但是没机会。。。没想到我终於在这演唱会看到了~ 他们唱了两首歌。。。“天生反骨” 和 “某年某月某一天” 。。。当他们唱某年某月某一天时，勾起了我很多回忆。。。超怀念地！！也很好听！！引起全场合唱。。。

接下来则是。。。“省话一哥” ，“黑蜘蛛” ，“PK魔王” 萧敬腾~
带来第一首歌。。。“王子的新衣” 。。。超好听。。。飙高音引起全场轰动尖叫声连连。。。之后连带了另三首。。。歌唱实力一流。。。平时从电视机听到他的歌声，已经很佩服他了。。。去到现场感受那 live的演出。。。还真兴奋！！依然不一样~

然后出场的应该是马来西亚的绝对superstar冠军们。。。他们。。。冷了现场！！观众们也太现实，太过份了吧~ 他们的出场好像是现场的广告时间呢！！！哈哈！！！

“我不再做某某某。。。我是罗志祥！！” 帅~酷~帅到爆！！罗志祥是我最想看的艺人演出。。。每次看娱乐百分百。。。笑得眼泪都会流下。。。看他跳舞就觉得好酷。。。真的好幸运有机会看他live的演出。。。好high!!! 这样的歌手才真正会带动现场。。。让现场high翻天！！！第二首歌是“爱转角” 这首歌也引起全场合唱。。。好有感觉~好有Feel~!!! 下一首歌是“精舞门” 我只能说他跳舞都要耍帅~让主持人笑他说“绑鞋带也要耍帅！！” 突然记得现场不能带宠物。。。主持人对观众问谁有携带宠物。。。观众回答“有。。。“小猪” ！！吓了主持人。。。原来是“小猪” 罗志祥！！！哈哈！！

之后是“可爱教主” 杨丞琳~。。。Vincent去的目的。。。哈哈！！带来“任意门” “狼来了” 和一首三年前感动了许多人的歌。。。“暧昧” ！！！也是一首全场合唱的歌。。。真的会起鸡皮疙瘩~但是，却很感动，浪漫，回忆无穷。。。让我想起了从前的他~瞬间从新爱上这首歌。。。我的手机铃声也是这首“暧昧” 噢~！！

即将解散的元卫觉醒。。。唱了两首歌。。。“下流社会” 。。。蛮特别的一首歌。。。有点调皮~ 另一首是“夏天的风” 。。。整个晚上最有夏天感觉的一首歌了~像在沙滩似的！！！

然后。。。来到“广告时间” 。。。You know what I mean rite~ 绝对superstar冠军演出的时间啦！！

“广告”结束后。。。出场的是“黄立行” 。。。唱了两首歌。。。“无神论” “音浪” 。。。他也high翻了现场！！样子有够bad boy。。。还将为电影演出“变态杀手” 。。。还蛮适合他的咯！！！哈哈！！！

最后出场的是蔡依林。。。Penny期待的啦~。。。她的新造型还蛮像Cleopatra。。。唱了三首歌。。。“爱无赦” ，“一个人” ，和“日不落” 。。。她的魅力真的无法挡。。。全场跟着她的歌舞摇动了起来。。。可是，当她演唱“日不落” 时。。。她的声音变得好怪耶~感觉好像杨丞琳的声音。。。超“爹” 地！！！怀疑她不是唱现场的。。。好假噢！！

终结。。。可惜没办法站前面。。。但没去的更加可惜！！
现场和电视机前所感受的完完全全不一样。。。现场的音响和气氛。。。
真的好high！！

I'm Sorry

2008-08-22T22:25:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry
I’m not able to be by your side
You aren’t able to share your feeling with me
You are lost

I’m sorry
I’m not suppose to blame you
You aren’t able to tell me by that moment
You are lost

I’m sorry
I still can’t accept the truth
You aren’t able to convince me
You are lost

I’m sorry
I’m staying away from you
You aren’t you anymore
You are lost

But
Give me sometime
Let me find a way to lie myself into accepting
I believe I can

But
For the moment
Please take good care of yourself
I believe you can

领悟

2008-07-20T15:20:00.002+08:00

缘分
是很奇妙的东西
但我终於能体会
如果一开始就有那感觉，那默契，那熟悉感
我们当初就会在一起
我们第一次见面就像认识了很久
谈得来，相处得来
另外一种缘分
就是
在人海茫茫
你能找到我
而我也能碰见你
然后说声 “嗨”
(第二次碰到就说: “咿~酱巧~等我啊？”
第三次又撞到就会说: “你跟踪我~”)
*haha~ “V*T弟弟” hor!!~*
若没缘分
无论你在我左右
再转个弯
你我还是个走个的
连“拜拜”一声都没机会说
*When it is meant to be, i'll see you at the other end~*

乐观
是自己设定地
建设个快乐的想法，感受，心情
之前的我超乐观
从不被不利于我的事击败
渐渐地
我被感染了
变得好悲观
日子是黑的
再也不相信生命充满著欢喜
幸好我趁早逃离
现在的我
乐观了多
体重还起了一公斤噢~
要从你身边发觉悲观者不难 (看他们的部落格就知道啦~)
他们总会写些有的没的
写得自己有多悲惨
有时候会觉得他们好假
好像在博人同情
自己扛吧
(幸好这里不是麻辣讨论区~不然我就会爆料咯~)
但是
那是你的部落格
你怎么写你的事
Careless~
*Keep cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down!!~*

抉择
决定了就不要后悔
决定了就要承担一切
21了
要学会成熟，承担
这样别人才会对你有信心
我发现我决定的两件事
是对的
对我的选择执着
终於我看见了成果
*Made a decision,live with it~*

Progressive Documentation

2008-07-06T18:23:00.000+08:00

It has been 5 weeks of my training and as I’ve mentioned in my previous post...it’s getting exciting as I’ve bond closer with my supervisor and colleagues...They treat me like their daughter especially Auntie MayMay and Phua LC...also, I’m more comfortable with the environment and getting used to the canteen food that sucks...haha~

There’s still not much task for me to do...I’ll just be very busy in the morning and after that I’ll be very free...all I can say is that training for me is about EAT EAT EAT~ breakfast, lunch, then tea break...haha~ Heaven!!

If you ask me what I do since most of the time I’m so free...I’ll tell you that I’ll email using intranet “chatting” with another 3 trainees who came in during my 3rd week of training...they are MMU diploma students...younger than me by one year but still we have lotsa things to talk, we go for breakfast, lunch and sometimes tea break together and we are into online shopping lately...haha~ every time during lunch time we’ll eat for half an hour and the remaining half an hour we’ll sit in front of the PC browse thru the website...haha~ that’s our entertainment!! So, for me now...time passed very quickly in Vishay...training is not that dull for me now...but sad though you guys leaving Vishay in mid September...me in the end of September... what can I say...you guys came in later and leave earlier than me...I think is the same for another trainee from KL who came in the same day as me also who I still don’t have the chance to get to know, leaving in early September...Sad sad~

I’ve already finished my progressive report for my supervisor to comment and I’m getting it back tmr...really hope that she’ll write something good bout me though...what else to write other than good comments since I’ve not done something terrible there~!! *evil grin*

Frankly speaking, this post is my genuine, sincere, heartfelt...what ever word it can be... “My progressive report”...what I have to write in my progressive report requested by MMU is not a progressive report at all...so formal~
Thus, it is totally different...progressive report illustrates fakeness and progressive documentation (my blog post) illustrates the truth and nothing but the truth...

p.s : but, if any how my MMU supervisor or Vishay supervisor have the chance to read my blog...this post will not be like all this...hahaha~

Happy Father's Day

2008-06-15T22:45:00.001+08:00

女儿是爸爸前辈子的情人
所以。。。
女儿永远是爸爸的心肝宝贝
爸爸是女儿今世的依靠
所以。。。
爸爸永远是女儿的大英雄
这是我想对您说的

Happy Father’s day!!!!

Industrial Training

2008-06-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

Second week has passed, my industrial training is starting with a very slow pace but it is getting interesting soon...1st week was like so boring and tedious...sitting down, looking to the left, to the right, swinging my chair to the left then right...took a few glance at the clock...stare at the desk...slumber for the whole week!!! I guess is the same for everyone doing their industrial training...we need to get a username and a pc setup for us and that means we have to wait for a few days and maybe weeks to get it done...this is what I’m going thru basically...waited for my username, pc and program setup, helping others to do filling and also day dreaming...haha!!!
One more thing...I’m majoring in business and now I’m assigned to Quality assurance department and is all about engineering....what the heck!!! So I have to start everything from scratch...last few days I’m reading thru the company’s profile, about semiconductor, about their product (coupler and custom)...how to assure the quality, incoming spec, document control, calibration, reliability...blar blar blar!!!! Also, went to production line to observe the production flow...don’t understand at all but it is something new and quite fascinating...
Other than all these...my department got a lot of aunties and uncles who are all nice people... my supervisor too...they take care of me a lot...every time ask me got people bully me onot, buy me breakfast and tea break...
Compare to others...my industrial training is far more “relaxing”...start at 8pm, ends at 5.15pm...with 3 breaks...breakfast, lunch and tea break...is gonna be good plan for my put on weight initiative...haha!!! Plus, I don’t have to work on Saturday...woohoo!!! One more thing...i’m looking forward to the company’s annual dinner...which is going to be held on 30th of August...the theme is “Wild Wild West”...i’m gonna dress up like a cow girl...Yeehaa!!!
The not-so-like-thing is the canteen’s food...everyday the same lauk...damn oily...have to tahan for another 4months...omigod!!
I think that’s all I can say about my training...since it has only just begun!!!

The last day of May

2008-05-31T16:44:00.000+08:00

Everything will eventually come to an end...is been a very physically and mentally tired month for me...hectic and endless!!! Fortunately, it all has come to an end...

Bad luck has been following me around last few months...or maybe I’m just to pessimistic about life lately...I’ve been putting myself in depression whenever there’s something that is not in my way...people live with hope and expectation...and I drown myself with too much hopes and high expectations which ultimately inviting much disappointments. I’m chasing things to hastily like I don’t have much time anymore...don’t know why...I just need to cool down and realize that I have plenty of time to figure things out...and I managed to do that while I’m away from the bunch of friends I’m with in uni...they changed me indirectly and the environment too...luckily, I found the virus that is hacking my system...is a deadly virus...there’s no way I can clear them off...but, I’ve somehow enhanced my anti-virus program to heal myself...I won’t let “them” get in my way!!! I’ll be stronger than I was before and I am now!!
It is so obvious that you can notice in that bunch of friends...they are all fake...a human being wearing a mask for disguise...one of them notice that, and is too late for him already...he can’t tear off his mask cos it has been part of his identity now...he know that if he takes off his mask...he don’t have friends anymore...and all he can do now is continue being “bogus”...such a pity...they are in peer pressure now...I saw in one of them...so pathetic...why do you need to be who you are not just to hang or mix into the group??? Ya...you are one of them now...but you are not who you are anymore...you have lost yourself...you are nobody in the group...they will just feel that you are fun and after awhile...you are a junk!!! If you are clever enough...be brave and leave them, you’ll find others that are more worth calling friends!!! I’ve found mine!!!

Let’s talk about uni life...started off with 7 subjects...is not that hard to manage though...only when it comes to examination...it takes a long time to reach the last paper...that’s all...and I think I did quite well for most of the paper...only Malaysian economy and Treasury management are kinda no confidence...so cross my finger!!!
Starting 2nd of June...I’m going for industrial training at Vishay for 4 months...don’t have to study for a few months and no examination only reports need to be done...a whole new environment for me...which I dislike the most...have to fit in takes time...1st day or maybe 1st week is the hardest...so hope that the people there like me and I can get well among them and get use to it asap!!! FYI...getting the approval from Vishay as a trainee is not that easy for me...applied it at 1st and they assign me to the QA department...then later, they did not send the confirmation letter to my uni and the date line is almost due...I was so frustrated and scare that I can’t do my industrial training next semester and I can’t graduate on the exact year that I was suppose to graduate...and worse off, I did not apply for a second company for backup...*faint* there goes again my pessimistic thinking...thinking that I’ll for sure won’t be able to do industrial training and I have to stay back while my friends graduate...however, someone...she really help me get thru all these by kept on convincing me that I’ll surely get Vishay...thanks!! I really did hang on till the very last and finally they sent the confirmation letter to my Uni!! Thank god!!
So, I’ll be training at Vishay starting this Monday, 8am (so early)
Let’s see what else happened in May...
Dad and Mum went Shanghai, Jiangnan and a few more places...bought me a Coach Bag and purse!!! Hahaha!!!
Then, we are the 1st batch that need to do the Final Year Project(FYP)...after our industrial training...have to look for a supervisor and I did found one and now I need to search for a research topic...have to start doing during the industrial training so that we will not be too rush...
I think that’s all...others are all small matter that I don’t think i’ll say it here...
Till then...Ciao!!

18th May 2008

2008-05-30T18:21:00.005+08:00

Almost every year...18th of May...it'll fall on my examination week...either having exam on this day or exam on the next day...that means that i can't have fun without thinking that i have to do revision...but luckily, this time around, it is a saturday and i have 5 days break b4 the next paper...whoohooo!!

On this beautiful saturday evening, ying ing and agnes were the one that i spent myday with...we went to Dataran Pahlawan to take the "Photo-sticker-thingy"...it took us such a long time to get the perfect 6 shots...you should understand why we took bout almost 2 hours to get it done..."girls = imperfection is a no" haha!! but...the 6shots and poses are damn perfect and pretty...will have it uploaded in friendster later...
Then, we went to Bunga Raya to have our dinner...at the backlane tepi longkang...makan Lala...imagine 3 girls with makeup and dress so not causal eat lala at tepi longkang...everyone is looking...but, hey~who cares!!!

After dat...we went to this cafe called "The Tribe"(not so sure if i got the name correctly)...at melaka raya...is such a cool place and totally recommended!!! It is different from the other cafe though...they don't have chairs...their concept is like japanese style...and with lotsa pillows!!(like the below photos) the prices of the drinks are reasonable...the environment is romantic...if you would like to try out something new...this is the place!!!

Although is just a simple "girls day out" but "is who you are with and not where you are or what you did"...

The nite did not just end like dat though...they gave me 2 suprises...

The first one was the birthday gift...here's the drama...

They went to Sasa and telling me that they need to get some thing...then ying ing pretend that she wanted to buy a set of eyeshadow...so she consult me for the colours that suit her...and ask me which colour of eyeshadow i like if i would to buy...by that time i did not suspect anythg...she is such a good actress!!! or i'm just so clueless!!!

Then is agnes turn...asking me which eyeliner is better...and end up buying one as if for herself and at the end is my present!!

Here's the point...when the 3 of us are together...our topic can never run away from makeup!!! so they totally know what i need and what i like...thus, they put on this drama and bought the present of which i totally need and love it!!!

The second suprise is the birthday "cake"...

2 of them are totally misterious that day...they even speak in Hokkien which i have no idea what were they talking about...and i don't even know when they've bought a "cake" for me...they wanted to buy a cake for me but the day b4 my birthday...Sherlin treat me with a cheesecake at Mori Cafe (here...wanna say thank you to Sherlin for the treat!!! Thank you!!!) so, they bought fruit tarts for me!!! when they show up with the tarts with candles lighted...i felt so so happy and it was the best moment ever!!!

Happy Birthday!!!
The sad has gone...let the happy come!!
Thank you Ying ing and Agnes Lee!!!

2008-05-29T15:17:00.007+08:00

First of all...
Happy 21st Birthday to myself!!!~

Secondly...
Thanks to my Family members~
Daddy, Mummy, Popo, Sis, Bro and Jeremy...
And all my relatives~

Thirdly...
Thanks a lot to Weiqi, Ying Ing and Agnes Lee~
For the wonderful efforts, making my birthday full of surprises and love...

And last but not least...
Thank you to all that came to my party on the 24th of May 2008~
And to all that had wishes me tru sms, calls, emails, testi and etc...

Love all the prezzie and angpows...really really appreciate it and what can I say...
All of them are very useful!!! Hehe~
The funny thing is that, not funny lar actually....is quite a coincidence...
I have three same prezzie...which is from Body Shop...3 White Musk...2 of it is “toilette” and another 1 is “parfum”...i think I’m gonna smell nice for a long time though...hehe!

Another interesting present from my Dad & Mum and my godmother...
Have a look~

Is the same~

Haha~my parents have the same taste...

All Mum and Dad in the world are the same...

Thank you all~

Is the most wonderful 21st birthday ever!!

Cheers~!!!

Happy 21st Birthday

2008-05-18T01:09:00.002+08:00

From Daddy & Mummy
To Rachel
From Rachel
To Daddy & Mummy
THANK YOU & i LOVE you always!!!~

Happy Mother's Day

2008-05-11T18:21:00.003+08:00

Roses are red

Violets are blue

I know this is so not creative

but still i'll say it here

When the violet is red

and the rose turns blue

You are always there

and i'll always love you

Happy Mother's Day~~~~~Mummy!!!

Why me?

2008-04-25T23:07:00.001+08:00

Ever since last few weeks...
bad news kept pouring down on me
never stop since then...
one by one
one after another...
when will all these go away
it was the 1st time...
i felt so vulnerable
so helpless...
such a misery for me
hope that tomorrow...
i'll get some good news

"What's there to celebrate...when you don't have the one you loved and the one closed to you to share all your joy..."

My 100th post

2008-04-20T23:08:00.004+08:00

Never thought that i'll be able to blog till now...
and since this is my no. 100th post...
so...
let me show you something...

Different??

No difference??

What do you want?

2008-04-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

I’m scared
Because you came into my life
I’m confused
Because you give then you left

What am I suppose to expect
When you are close to me
What am I suppose to trust
When you say those words to me

What do you mean
By saying that you care
What do you want
By leaning so close to me

I’m afraid
I’ll get trapped in your arms
I’m terrified
I’ll lie myself to fall for you

Please stop
If you don’t mean it
Please go
If you don’t want to break my heart

Mystique 2008~A Fairy Tale Ending~

2008-04-14T20:53:00.006+08:00

Pictures speak a thousand words~
So...
I'll let the photos do the talking!!!~

~That's me~

~At "IN CREATIVE" Bridal~~David & Me~
~Leng Lui~~6 Guys & A Girl~

厌倦

2008-04-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

累了，真的累了
终於看到一清二楚
它
是不会永久地
从前所说的
已不再真实
它
是短暂地
我
一直很真诚很真心对待
你
却为了一时的新鲜感
遗忘丢弃
我们的从前
你
对得起我吗
对得起你自己吗
还是我该说
你根本不知道
你该对得起谁了

我
还得感谢你呢
要不是你现在这样
漏出你真本色
我
一定还被蒙在鼓里
笨得傻得蠢得
被你当布偶玩控
让你享用我的真心
幸好
真的幸好
我醒来了
你再也无法从我身上
得到信赖,关心
甚至
尊重

也许
最近你觉得我对你的态度变了
但是
变的是你
对
就是你
你变了
我没变
我还是我
但
你已不是你了

或许
你觉得
你还拥有
但真实的是
你已经失去了
不要怪我
怪你自己
喜欢新鲜感

有一天
你一定会想要回到从前的我们
但
很抱歉
不可能
你进了我的黑名单
损友

Where am I?

2008-03-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

Suppose to post something a long time ago...but...lazy is always around the corner and a lot of things that are hard to express rite here rite now...
Somehow...things had to be said...life will eventually goes on...

Let’s see what to begin with....
Let’s start with my uni life....
We are going to have a conference with forum, debate and drama...on April 1st and 9th...
I’m in the “General Affair” division...in charge of the decoration part...every division is damn hectic...this not done, that can’t be achieved...so now, all that we can hope is that we are able to complete all the event smoothly...we are really running out of time!!! Just have to wait and see!!!
Well, I mentioned that I wanted to join yoga rite??!! Ya...went to yoga 5 times ad...love it so much!!! I can see myself bending and folding my body into weird shapes ad...hahaha!!!
Other than that...been worrying a lot about my industrial training application...I’ve sent in my application to Vishay...and lately just received their confirmation of my status and I’m IN!!!! Gonna start my training 2nd of June for 3 months...I guess I’m looking forward to it...really need to change my environment rite now...don’t really like what I’m in now... “A fake environment!!!” (will talk about that next post)
Also, I’ll be going to prom *Mystique2008* this April...I think April will be an eventful month for me...compile of conference, midterm exams, assignments, prom...but...it’ll be fun!!!

Besides, this is a year...full of 21!!! And money is flying out here and there!!! Is like “spending-spree-on-gifts”...this is the time where you’ll be glad that you don’t have many many friends!!! Or you’ll cry ur heart out that you have too many friends!!!
So, sometimes, is great that you have just a few friends that really treat you as true-hearted friend and not like those who have many friends...what’s the point...are you sure that all of them treat you as “FRIEND”??? You’ll gonna loose those that really care about you in the end though!!! And I think...YOU DID!!!!!! So, bye!!!

Ok not gonna go there yet!! Will spit it out more on my next post!!

-Corinthians-

2008-02-14T15:39:00.000+08:00

Love is always patient and kind
It is never jealous
Love is never boastful or conceited
It is never rude or selfish
It does not take offense and is not resentful
Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins
But delights in the truth
It is always ready to excuse
To thrust
To hope and
To endure whatever comes...

Happy Valentine’s Day!!

Happy Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

Is the year of the rat
Be glad with what you’ve had
Cherish each and every moment in life
Let love infect our life

恭喜发财
心想事成
身体健康
桃花朵朵开
新年快乐
Chinese new year eve- Yee Sang

New Trimester

2008-01-27T23:24:00.000+08:00

今天就是最后一天的假期了
明天又要回到“assignments”的生活了
也应该是最忙碌的学期吧
拿了7 subjects 包括 Chess
另外想参与Yoga
很羡慕那些能把身体任由弯扭的人
加上我想做做运动
好久没运动了
也该是时候踏出第一步了吧

想起明天就超闷
应该是在等待新年
还是很想放长假
而且不幸的我
今天早上
发现自己病倒了
现在正打字
喉咙和鼻子却一直在作怪
前几天朋友们也生病
劝他们要好好照顾自己
毕竟要新年了
气候多变
但却连我也没把自己顾好
希望病魔不要缠着我不放
我讨厌生病
快离开我好吗？？！！
大家要照顾好身体噢！！
Take good care!!!

在水一方

2008-01-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

Lately been really into this song....
Love the rock part!!!
Actually, the original singer of this song is Theresa Teng 邓丽君
And this is the rock version of the song!!!

在水一方

Music Code provided by sogou.com

New Hair Style

2008-01-20T00:12:00.000+08:00

My new hair style~
Short!!!!
Shocked???

Five of us

2008-01-15T12:17:00.000+08:00

15/01/2007.........was at Sunway having fun with you guys!!!
15/01/2008..........at home blogging and posting these 2 pics that we like the most!!!

Review

2008-01-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

13 days ago...it was 2007...
I’m 13days late for review...
During the last few days of 2007...I was busy with my final exams...really no time for blogging...hah...plus I oso don’t have the mood to review...maybe I hate to look back at those that have been history in my life...or maybe I’m afraid that I’ll regret when I look at what had happened back in the past...pathetic betul!!! Of coz it’s not that I’m “very” afraid but mostly lazy!!! Hahaha!!!
But, till now, I’m still living life regret-less-ly!!!

Wait a minute.....
I suddenly notice that not only me that is afraid though...almost everyone is afraid of their past...I noticed that a lot of blogs that blog about “review” will only talk about all the Happy, Interesting, unforgettable, the best of...all about happy things in life but never the sad, hurtful, upsetting incidents in their life....I know that you are afraid too...just admit it!!! Or you prefer remembering “happy” and forget the “sad”??? Or maybe you don’t have any sad stuff in life...you live life merrily!!! (But I don’t believe that at all!!! Life is what?? Full of Ups and Downs!!!)

I don’t think I need to review anything here anymore...all have been said in my past, previous, previous posts!!!
Let’s start a new!!!
Today is today, tomorrow will be tomorrow, and yesterday was yesterday.....
Hope that everyone I know....family and frenz will be HAPPY and HEALTHY forever!!!
You must *Be Happy* ok!!!

X'mas 2

2008-01-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

~X'mas BBQ Party 2007~

Ai Zek, Alex, Wei Chuan

7 Goddess-七仙女

~Mid Valley~

I'm not alone after all~~~

Lonely X’mas

2007-12-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

I’m still alone...
And for 2007 X’mas eve...

At home...
Nobody ajak...
So...
Mostly count down all alone...
3,2,1....

However...

party-ing tomorrow...

hope that it'll be fun although is getting lesser and lesser ppl...
One more thing...where’s my X’mas gifts??? Don’t forget to buy me one ya!!!
HoHoHo~ MerRy ChiRstMaS!!!~

蒲公英的约定

2007-12-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

蒲公英的约定

~与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清　
你是友情还是错过的爱情~

现在的我
不想超越友情的界线。。。
我们回到从前好吗？？

Green Astrology

2007-12-22T15:11:00.000+08:00

The key to your personality can be linked to which “tree” you come under.
Do you find a bit of yourself in each “tree”- or you are exactly what it says???
(The Star-CLOVE)

Which tree does your birthday fall under?
Dec23-Jan1 Apple : Loving
Jan2-11 Fir : Mysterious
Jan12-24 Elm : Noble
Jan25-Feb3 Cypress : Faithful
Feb4-8 Poplar : Uncertainty
Feb9-18 Cedar : Confidence
Feb19-29 Pine : Particular
March1-10 Weeping Willow : Melancholy
March11-20 Lime : Reluctance
March21 Oak : Strength
March22-31 Hazelnut : Extraordinary
April1-10 Rowan : Sensitivity
April11-20 Maple : Independence
April21-30 Walnut : Passion
May1-14 Poplar : Uncertainty
May15-24 Chestnut : Honesty
May25-June3 Ash : Ambition
June4-13 Birch : Inspirational
June14-23 Fig : Sensibility
June24 Birch : Inspirational
June25-July4 Apple : Loving
July5-14 Fir : Mysterious
July15-25 Elm : Noble
July26-Aug4 Cypress : Faithful
Aug5-13 Poplar : Uncertainty
Aug14-23 Cedar : Confidence
Aug24-Sept2 Pine : Particular
Sept3-12 Weeping Willow : Melancholy
Sept13-22 Lime : Reluctance
Sept23 Olive : Wisdom
Sept24-Oct3 Hazelnut : Extraordinary
Oct4-13 Rowan : Sensitivity
Oct14-23 Maple : Independence
Oct24-Nov11 Walnut : Passion
Nov12-21 Chestnut : Honesty
Nov22-Dec1 Ash : Ambition
Dec2-11 Hornbeam : Good taste
Dec12-21 Fig : Sensibility
Dec22 Beech : Creativity

Mine fall under May15-24...
Chestnut
Key Quality: Honesty
Often unusually attractive, you have a well-developed sense of justice. You’re born diplomat, but your self-confidence is easily knocked and when this happens, you can come across as either overly sensitive or superior.
You have a tendency to love only once, which can make it difficult to find the right partner.

Kinda shocking to find it true...and I examined each friend of mine and family members and they all 80% MATCH!!!!

So, why dun you try it out...if you like to know more about yourself and elaboration of your personality from that tree...tell me and I’ll tell you!!!

20/12

2007-12-20T14:38:00.000+08:00

It was today...last year 20/12/2006

Is raining outside rite now~

幸福相传

2007-12-02T15:11:00.000+08:00

1. 小时候的理想是什么?
我记得我写了两个：记者，钢琴师
还是最想完成的梦想。。。

2. 什么事能让你开心？满足？
不让我伤心，烦恼的事我就开心了
能享用美食我就满足了。。。哈哈！！

3. 你喜欢的颜色？
咖啡色。。。

4. 你最想去哪個地方？爲什麽？
日本。。。其实会下雪，能购物的地方都想去

5. 你的缺点和优点是什么？想改变那一点呢？
缺点：说不出优点是什么
优点：说不出缺点是什么
缺点=优点，优点=缺点。。。就希望两个能互补吧。。。

6. 如果有不開心的事情，你會怎麽辦？
以前会一人扛下不让任何人知道。。。面带笑容
现在会找好朋友诉苦。。。

7. 最害怕失去的东西？
失去乐观的自我。。。

8. 喜歡怎樣的二人世界？
躺在他胸前感受他的心跳。。。什么也不用说。。。你我都觉得幸福浪漫。。。

9. 哪一首歌给过你最深的感动？
太多了。。。我每一个人生阶段都有一首感动过我的歌
就不多提了。。。

10．孤独是什么？
孤独是我在一群人当中。。。却觉得只有我一个人。。。

11．至今最令你後悔的事是甚麼如果可以回去挽救你想怎麼做？
没有耶。。。因为我不会回头看过去的事。。。也希望不会有。。。(有可能吗？？？)

12．你最討厭怎樣的人？
我把你当朋友你却不把我放在眼里。。。利用我！！！
最好给我小心一点。。。

13．什么地方留给你最深的回忆？
在爸妈，朋友的怀抱里。。。

14．你吃过最好吃的是什么？
还没吃过最好吃或最难吃的东西。。。所以不知道。。。

15．如果能让你实现一个愿望，会是什么？
说了不就不灵了吗。。。那我还是不说好。。。哈哈！！！

16．喜歡自己身體的哪個地方？
大小腿。。。

17．如果被误会了,你会怎样?
如果很严重。。。关系到我，家人朋友。。。就会解释理清。。。讨回公道清白
如果是小case...那就算了。。who cares!!

18．如果可以回到过去，你希望回到几岁?为什么?
15/17岁吧。。。回到中3中5 和朋友一起打拼PMR&SPM
好想念哪段日子啊！！！(可是不要考试啦)

19．你的择偶条件是什么？
不知道耶。。。因为想的和真实的一定相反。。。
但还是他的真心最重要！！！

20. 你觉得自己幸福吗？
如果幸福有三个LEVEL。。。
我。。。应该是在幸福LEVEL 2吧！！

Tagged by Oceon...
(Next time dun tagged me la...very lazy to do this kind of stuff lor...)

December

2007-12-02T15:07:00.000+08:00

Is coming to an end...December...last month of the year...
All I can say is “Time really flies”...so many things happened this year...especially last few months...all quite sudden, unexpected, scary, new...but, very interesting...learnt from it and gain experience from it...especially from “friends”, a little from outside...

Found out that although I’m already 20...but still...I’m much protected...haven’t get polluted by the real world...many things are out of my expectation...maybe is time for me to step outside of my comfort zones...is better now than later or never...learn that from my friend...
“Fall now...better than falling harder the next time!!”

One more thing, people change, the world is changing, me too...
I’m still changing...I’m still finding who I am in this world...that’s why I can’t tell you what I really like, what I really want from you...I hope you understand that...give me some time...when I’ve found “me”...I’ll let you know...I hope you can wait...but if you really wanna leave...I’ll never stop you...I understand...I really do...thanks a lot!!!

Confuse

2007-11-27T18:32:00.001+08:00

William Shakespeare says:
" To be or not to be,
That's a question..."

But...now
I'm lingering around

"To say or not to say,
That's a question..."

你看到我了没

2007-11-12T00:52:00.000+08:00

拥挤的人潮
我来你去他往
无意间
我看见了一个好熟悉的背影
是你
我确认是你

心里很矛盾
我害怕也许是害羞
你看见我
但希望你发现我和我打个招呼
可是我却躲了起来
心想和你玩个躲猫猫
想变成一只渴望被猫猫捉到的老鼠
但是我好失望
你没发现我
你好笨耶
两次两次
你都经过我旁边
却忽视了我
我就在你右边啊
你没看见我吗

也许我在你眼里
只是一颗平凡的星星
永远无法发出耀眼地光芒
是我不够闪亮
吸引不到你
可是我却看到你
因为在我眼里
你是一颗耀眼的流星
在一群星星中
脱颖而出

终於我领悟了
星星配不上流星
星星要离开了
星星要和流星告别
星星想找回自己的光芒
星星要去寻找适合星星的星星了
希望流星会找到属于流星的流星吧

保护色

2007-10-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

Lately been kinda obsessed with one of this song called-保护色(Bao Hu Se) by 苏亦承...
love this song so much because the lyric is very meaningful and also the melody of this song...try to listen to it...especially the piano version...damn nice...
i'm so in love with this song...as mentioned in one of my post...that i took the initiative to learn to play the piano for this song(i haven't actually played a full song for such a long time already and i did not learn to play the piano, i learn organ when i was young and that was years~ ago)...and i managed to play till the verse...although it is getting harder and harder...but i'll continue and try my best to play the whole song...if i'm able to play the whole song...maybe i can play it for you...hehe!!(Don't know when it's gonna be...we'll just wait and see)
So for now...let's just listen to the song i've uploaded here...
Enjoy!!!

保护色

Music Code provided by sogou.com

保护色- 钢琴曲

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People Always Leave

2007-10-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

每次来到这地步
我真的不知要如何处理
我的思绪
但这是我
我一向来的作风
我不会限制
也不会控制
对任何人事物的
投入与付出
我投入了太多我的心
去了解拉近
不希望有任何距离
不使它产生裂痕
一旦放出就无法回收
最终承担不舍
有的时候
好想把心结冻
保护自己
那就不必面对伤痛
可是
如果我把心关闭
我不就一个人了吗
好空虚
孤单寂寞是我弱点
我不想一人渡过黑夜
所以
我又有何办法呢
任何选择还是会伤害我的心
我该怎么办呢
把心收藏
或是投出呢
就象人与人之间的交往
一定有合
有散
我喜欢“合”
讨厌“散”
而我相信
任何一段感情
无论是短短的几个月
或是以长久
一定会结束
因为
每个人终究会离开

~People always leave~

Thanks

2007-10-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, Me and my primary classmates went back to our primary school to give a surprise to our standard 1 and 2 class teacher, 唐老师, who is having her retirement...
Well, she still looks the same as the image of her that was printed in my mind for the past 13/14 years...not much has changed...I think we are the one that have changed...and I’m glad that she still remember my name after so long...such a warm feeling for her to call out my name when she saw me...made me felt so guilty if I have ever hated her when she taught me in standard 1 and 2...but, I still respect her with all my heart...and even though I have said so many times “Thank You!!” to her that day...I think is never gonna be enough...so, Piklian here wanna say it again:
“谢谢您, 唐老师!! 愿您天天健康快乐!!”

Some of my friends and seniors are going for their internship or industrial training a few days later...wanna say...haizzz...can’t see you guys for a few months in campus... “Yahooo!!!” hahaha...no lar...juz kidding!!! Gonna miss you guys...your jokes, our laughter, your “advice”....All the best k!!!

One more thing....

To “忠厚老实的”horse,
Haha...sorry that I have to use this “name”...and I think you know who you are right??!!!
Well, first of all...thanx a lot for the dinner and drinks...although is not the way we expected it to taste...but at least we tried something new and special rite??!! Haha!! And I’ve just remember that you forget to take the present I gave it to you (remember what is it??)...so bad lar you!!! However, still wanna say thx!!!
*See I so considerate...I did not mention your name...if not let your “brothers” know about this they’ll say you not “brother” enough*

Scribble

2007-10-12T01:27:00.000+08:00

When there’s no day...
There won’t be night
When there’s no end...
There won’t be a start

Finals’ over
Holidays begin
Exams are difficult
Hope that I won’t fail

I have two jobs
So not much time to relax
All I can do is have fun
While I have another 5days

Gonna sleep as late as I like
Gonna wake up as late as I wish
Gonna waste my time doing nothing if I feel so
Gonna catch up all the things I’ve missed

Have lotsa things I love to have
Have lotsa things I wanna get it done
I’m half way through
But still felt like I’ve not move forward

I miss my frens~Liling, Weiqi (even though I’ve jus met you)
Have lotsa moments that I would love to share it with you
How are you in Australia?
Take good care when you are back in Kajang!

Have this song in my mind
Love the melody so much
The first song that I took the initiative to learn
Manage to play the verse

Here and there
No head no tail
I think I’ve miss out something
But, that’s all the pieces that is on my mind right now

Lazy to put it together
So just spit it out
Without arranging it
Let it be the way it supposed to be

When there’s no complicated
There’ simple
If you understand then “great”
If not then “just forget bout it”

Ha~Chewww

2007-10-12T00:34:00.000+08:00

Excuse me ya!! Haha...has been sneezing a lot lately...don’t really know when my nose has become so damn sensitive...about everyday, I’ll sneeze...when I woke up, when I’m about to fell asleep, anytime...anywhere, my nose will feel cheekily itchy...then I’ll Ha~chewwww...can’t stop it...and I hate it!!! Hope that I can find a way to stop it and cure it before it become worse...any idea???

Talking bout sneezing...
There’s something special about it...or maybe scary about it...
Have you heard before that when you sneeze, your heartbeat actually stop like for 0.00001 or something second??? And that’s why when someone sneeze, someone beside you’ll say “Bless you!!”??? Have you noticed that??? Omigod!!! And I’ve been sneezing so frequently and means that my heartbeat stop for so many times already...What will happened to me next???

One more thing, when I was at the library, same thing happened, I sneezed, and suddenly, this international student from Arab (I guess) said “Excuse me”...
And I was like...
“Oak~o!! Am I being rude for sneezing but I remember saying excuse me, so why the heck is he calling me??”
Then he said: “You were sneezing just now right??”
Me: “Ya...”
He: “Oic...what’s your, I mean Chinese culture in sneezing???”
Me: “HUH??!! What do you mean??” (I was so terpegun when he asked that)
He: “I mean how do you sneeze??”
Me: “Just sneeze!!!” (Blur and speechless)
That international student still keep on asking how...it was like a chicken and a duck talking to each other...I don’t understand what he wanted to say and he don’t know why I’m saying things that he don’t wanna know....hahaha!!!!
After that...
He: “In my hometown, we will sneeze it out loud...we don’t hold on to our sneeze, or sneeze silently....cos....it’ll HURT our BRAIN if we don’t sneeze it out loud....and that’s our culture and believe!!!!
Me: “OIC!!! That’s what you meant!!! I’ve never heard bout that before in my life...at here we try to be polite...so we sneeze silently when there’s people around. That’s how we do it here!!!”
He: “Oic...but a piece of advice...you better sneeze it out loud...is OK!!!
Me: “Ok~”
Hahahaha!!! Such a cute and silly conversation...I think he was stress studying...so talk to me bout this kind of thing...true or not...at least I’ve got to know their culture...
So, how bout you???
HA~CHEWWWW!!!
Or
Ha~cheww???

陌生人

2007-09-16T13:40:00.000+08:00

下了一场雨
结束了一段梦
醒了过来
却发现
我和你
只是差身而过
我在你眼里
只是个陌生的迷路小女孩
与你好无相关
你在我心里
却是个陌生的恶魔
占据了我的生活
你选择前进
我选择后退
情愿躲在黑夜里
让你一次又一次地玩弄我的感情
让我为你流下不能回收的眼泪
或许是我太愚蠢
让你留下
如今
我决定抛弃你
虽然已舍不得
但是我会学着放下
让心复原不在疼痛
谢谢你留给我的伤痕
我会珍惜
从今以后
你也就是我生命中
路过，互不相识地
陌生人

爱情定义

2007-08-30T13:38:00.000+08:00

你的爱情的定义是什么
你突然问起我
真的有点吓到
而且
你这问题考倒了我
现在的我
真的无法给你一个明确的答案
因为
我也不知道
我的爱情定义是什么
好像这问题
离我好遥远
看不见一丝光芒
说不出答案
你让我想了一整夜
让我无法入睡
想着想着
头脑里浮现很多凌乱的答案
可是没有一个能让我满意的答案
试着把每个答案
联系在一起，拼凑在一块
但是
还无法拥有
一个属于我自己的爱情定义
大多数的人都说
他们的爱情定义是
“付出”
无论是单方面或是双方面
被逼还是心甘情愿
不求回报
无怨无悔
为所爱的另一半
不顾一切地
付出

我会吗??
我可以吗??
有一天
我可能会
就当我遇见我的真命天子
但不是现在
因为我不知道
他......在哪??!!

如果真的要我给你一个答案
我会说
“互相”
对我而言
爱情
须要双方面
有两个人
才能
互相
互相疼爱，付出，包容
互相争吵，牺牲，礼让
一起分享，负担，渡过

“互相”
我何时，何地
才能用得着
我...可以找到你吗？？

Telepathy

2007-08-28T12:38:00.000+08:00

Is the "telepathy" thing again...
Not sure whether is mind-reading or thought transference or maybe sixth sense...
well...what ever it is...it HAPPENED again...

Well...i watched a taiwan series...and there is this guy who loves to play the piano...and one day he and a girl was sitting in a park...and the guy ask the girl to listen to the enchanting sound of piano around them...then the girl says she can't hear anything at all...
so the guy said :
" The sounds that you listen with your eyes closed is different from the way you listen to it with your eyes open...because when you close your eyes...you are using your heart to listen...and that's wat makes the sound beautiful!!"
so the girl closed her eyes and the guy started to play the piano in the air...
and surprisingly...she managed to hear it...

Ok...back to the telepathy thingy that happened to me...

Obviously...such a "fun thing" evoked my curiosity...
so i played it with my sis...
i stuck out my hands and played the invisible piano and of course i had the music in my mind and i asked my sis to guess what music that i'm playing in my mind...

and guess what....YUP!!! You are damn RIGHT!!! she guessed it correctly...
i was playing one of Jay Chou's new song and she guessed it!!!
Omigod...unbelievable!!! WOW!!!
Believe it or not...

You better believe it!!!

爱不爱之书

2007-08-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

该死,
要忘掉你这么难...
那你呢?
记起我也很难吧!!
(Damn it, is so HARD for me to FORGET about you...what about you?? i think is HARD for you to REMEMBER me...rite??)

决定爱...
是两个人的事
决定不爱...
只要我们之间
一个人说就算...
(Love...is a TWO person business, but, break-up...either ONE of us said it counts...)

有没有一种东西好像存在...
又怕不存在
那是...
你的爱!!!
(There's something that exist, but, afraid it will disappear...that's your LOVE!!)

爱消失...
是一件好事
因为...
爱存在...
真是太累了啊!!!
(Love has disappeared...is a good sign...because, LOVE, made us suffer!!)

突如其感觉一阵伤痛...
那证明
爱存在!!!
(I felt a sudden pain...and that proved that LOVE does EXIST!!!)

希望我爱的人...
有一天能爱上我!!!
(Someday, I hope that the one i love...will fall in love with me!!)

Spent

2007-08-10T17:47:00.000+08:00

One week break...

supposed to be preparing for my 4 subjects' midterm exams and doing my assignments...

but i spent most of my time sleeping, watching TV and going out...

that's the way how i "spent" my break with...

Nonetheless...

i spent lotsa $$$...and is only the beginning of August...hope i'll be able to survive tru with what i have in my pocket now...

Before i forget...

Last Sunday...

went out with Mileva Elsa...

had lunch together...and spent the whole afternoon together...

and we actually spent a few hours...in Popular book store...

we saw this particular book call...

"爱.不爱之书"by 凯西.陈...

A book about love, fall in love, heart broken, everything associated with L.O.V.E...

is not a story book...it is like a book full of Love Quotes...

very simple yet influential...heart triggering...

lotsa quotes directly reflect what me and Mileva are feeling rite now...reflected our current emotions...unbelievable!!!

i will post some of the quotes that i like the most in my coming post...

I love that book so damn much...very very much...really wanna buy it...

but...

no money...

pathetically money-less...

hope that "someone" will buy it for me though...hehe...*wink*